Soul lost in transition between different lifestyles
Confusedboi
23
UWA
likes cars, games, movies, music, chilling with friends
hates doing work, realities of life as you get older
i dont see the point of continuing to blog when i cant express myself freely when i have to think twice before i write anything down to express all the frustrations out
therefore this blog will be on indefinite hiatus till further notice
maybe its time i get over this blogging phase want to criticise someone/something DO IT IN PERSON Actions speak louder than words
2:36:00 PM
talking about anime Tuesday, July 06, 2010
when an anime you watch gets you thinking about your own life and when you feel you can relate to the characters you know its good highly recommend watching the show angel beats
the characters all suffered horrible fates when they were alive they are then transplanted to a world where they live as spirits once again given the chance to fufill their dreams, what they wanted to do but doing so means you erase your existence entirely so whats the choice, to fufill or not to fufill your dreams
12:33:00 AM
Winter break in hot and humid singapore Saturday, July 03, 2010
as i type this almost 2 weeks of the break would have gone by
that leaves just 3 more weeks plus before school starts
3 precious weeks of brain lazing and slack free days before its back to hitting the books
it was just 2 and half weeks ago that i finished my last paper finished my last paper on the 18th of june
came back to sg on the 21st of june
in between had a blast of the weekend celebrating friends birthday, first time going to a karaoke place ( my teenage years were deprived) , eating out at different food places playing part time taxi driver and just soaking in whatever time i have left in laid back Perth the rental vehicle had dents and scratches on them so i had to be careful not to add anymore to them if not its extra charges waiting for me when i get back its larger than the toyota corolla but has stiffer suspension and heavier steering, not to mention the steering wheel partially obstructs the view of the dashboard display, but engine seems to have more power than the corolla
been trying to meet up with friends since getting back managed to meet up with some of them for some not yet as you know the older you get the harder its gets to stay in touch with people and for me there is this nagging empty feeling just doesn't go away no matter what i do
i think i have to admit it that for the past 2 years or maybe even longer been feeling jealous that i cant find a gf but then im also thinking would my life be better if i had one? can i force myself to be more quick witted, to be able to sweet talk and outwit people right now i just feel that it doesn't pay to be nice to people anymore especially if they take it for granted or take advantage whats the point then nice guys finish last?
been reading this book i bought dairies of a Singapore taxi driver the author used to be professor doing research at reputable institutions but got retrenched and is now driving cabs to make a living gives you an insight into the life of not just the author but the lives of people from all strata of society bar the elites aka untouchables
deep down all the glitz and glamor of Singapore there is a storm brewing and its been building up through the years especially since y2k
whats going to happen in the future? i have to think about my own future too i cant keep putting it off
12:37:00 AM
Monday, June 21, 2010
End of semester is here
and so one more semester draws to a close just finished exams a few days back i must say this exams feels more badly done than the past few semesters and it is the first time my exams on the very last day its a frustrating when you see people who finish their exams one week earlier than you start partying away
its a mixed feelings every time i head back to singapore
on one hand i can meet up with my family and friends on the other hand, there's just this feeling of being transplanted out of one world back into another and leaving the place where you spent time living together with other hallmates and all the memories both the good and the bad all the times of fun, laughter, frustration i think i have become too accustomed to this laid back life style since one year ago
i am supposed to be packing my stuff yet i am lazing around again
alright off to finish packing
oh and this is one day late
wish all fathers a happy fathers day!
that reminds me got to pack the stuff i bought for my dad
12:04:00 AM
time is running out Friday, June 04, 2010
just a few more days to the exams caught a cold a few days back been sneezing and weezing a lot screws your study momentum past few days really difficult to keep on studying luckily things returning to normal
apparently theres been some screwup the cheque from the insurance company hasnt arrived i presume its been lost somewhere called them up and requested for it to be resent
keep my fingers crossed that i will get it sometime next week been deprived of all the junk food that keeps me going the vicious cycle of studying plus cold weather you want to eat more
everyone is feeling the heat you can cut the tension with a knife at times i need my comfort food to keep things under control and my magic formula drink
chanced upon these remixes of kpop songs really nice kudos to the person who remixed them
this is just one them
1:16:00 AM
Saturday, May 22, 2010
a lot of things in my head now
at the back of my mind for the past 2 weeks was what car to get to replace the corolla the insurance payout should be arriving soon this coming week been searching the web, reading the adverts a few choice in mind toyota camry, toyota aurion( stretching the budget and have to bargain in order to get one), honda civic, mazda 3/6 , theres a lot of choices but many of them are private sellers searching from dealers only reduces the choices due to the markup in prices but the upside is the supposed better quality of cars from dealers
i would like to think that they have inspected the cars before trying to sell them well theres always that risk of buying a lemon and i hope to reduce that chances its even possible to get used bmw , wrx, lexus, is, but then... thinking about it, the costs of maintaining these vehicles is higher, not to mention i dont know whether this vehicles have been looked after
need vs want what is deemed as a want by someone is deemed a need by others
and another problem is my stomach the past month have been clearing bowels very often sometimes up to 3 times a day its irritating and annoying not sure what is causing all this the food i eat? is it the meals at the hall? the junk food i eat? the soft drinks? or something more sinister i hope not
6:10:00 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2010
2 more weeks of normal term time 1 week of swat vacation then its exams already 5 weeks time and its the end of second year of uni
just like that 4 semesters of uni will be over
the damaged corolla has been towed away to be auctioned off at discounted prices now awaiting for insurance payout from the insurers this entire process is taking ages
ive repaired the corolla back to a drivable state and am forced to let go of it i miss the car as a useful tool giving you the freedom to go where you want without the contstaints of public transport which is alright on weekday mornings and afternoons but once the sun sets and the weekend arrives public transport becomes .... well lets just say not very efficient miss the bus? the next one will come in half an hour after a certain time its one hour intervals between buses
well maybe its good that im holed up in the hall more often i need to get some serious work done been slacking throughout this sem even though i dont go out that much i procastinate too much on the web, watching shows, youtubing and results have suffered from this
need to think through a lot of things once this sem ends need to re evaluate whether i should continue pursuing finance as one of my majors having major difficulty coping with the units now, and these units are only the intermediate ones have yet to the advanced units
need to think whether i can still go for exchange in the final semester next year i think its too late to change majors now, have to make do with whatever i can get now
the few comforts now are eating good food to boost morale but even thats a challenge with hall food and junk food isnt a suitable substitute in the long run
